I have realized sometimes you need to stop trying to control life. Sometimes you just need to let it happen. Not in a float until something good comes, but not fighting what does come your way. I have messed up in this area in the past, in big areas and small. It has caused some regrets and I will never know how I have really affected my life. Sometimes we just need to go with the flow, so much of life is spent worrying, waiting, questioning being afraid of what we will gain and more so of what we might loose. The funny thing is once you Loose it, or loose that thing you were so tightly holding on to, you realize.... life goes on, with or without you, you have little control. You have control over what you do with the situations in your life, how you react, how you carry on, but most of the time you weather the storm or soak in the rays. There will be ups and downs. A lot more downs so enjoy the ups, learn from the past and cherish the present and look forward to the future. Have regrets so the past wont repeat its self. Love everything in life, your job your family the rainy days, the sunny days and even the snowy ones because after all every day will not be the same. Love those in your life, If you cannot love how can you expect to be loved. Hold on to those who no longer are in your day to day life still love them still let them be a part of you. This is what I have learned over the past year. I still miss, i still love but i am more me than ever. I found myself again.
