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The Weepies....

"Orbiting"

You named me judge the day that I was born
You asked too much to fix what you had torn
Things got out of hand, now I understand

And I'm out of your range
Now it's kind of strange
How we change orbit in our lives
You were kind of a moon outside of my room
I could just feel you nearby
Now I feel you gone
'Cause I know which side you're on
And it's not mine

I walk the line between now and then
It's deep-sea diving with no oxygen
Guess I went somewhere to hide
Far behind my eyes
I willed you there to see
But you never came for me

And I'm out of your range
Now it's kind of strange
How we change orbit in our lives
You were kind of a moon outside of my room
I could just feel you nearby
Now I feel you gone
'Cause I know which side you're on
And it's not mine
And it's not mine
And it's not mine


So im going to start a painting on friday, and Im letting a whole bunch of emotions out, they will have a home in this painting but no longer in me. I have held onto them now for a few months, it is time to move on... So those emotions can come out and stay in the painting to remind me of good times happy times, sad times with you.. but no longer in me.

All good things. (All good things.)
All good things. (All good things.)

Not sure where to go,
Everybody I know,
Says I'm too forgiving.
And now that I'm gone,
I don't wanna move on,
I just keep reliving.

All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you,
All good things. (All good things.)
Come to an end.
All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you well.

Lost inside of my head,
Empty side of the bed,
I feel this place without you.
I keep pushing the blues,
'Cause I don't want to lose,
What I love about you.

All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you,
All good things. (All good things.)
Come to an end.
All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you well...

I could think of a million ways,
You've proved you're one to one.
So live inside of your shades of gray,
And nevermind the sunshine that I'll find.

I got so much space now,
I got a whole house,
With the wind blowing through.
I don't need somewhere to hide,
I got this whole world inside,
I was accustomed to showing you.

All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you,
All good things. (All good things.)
Come to an end.
All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you well...
All good things. (All good things.)
Ohhhh, ohh, ohh
All good things. (All good things.)
Ohh, ohh, ohh
All good things. (All good things.)
Oh I wish you well.

william ernest henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


sooo im on a poem kick.

An Interesting Time

Woah life happens no matter what it has been an interesting few months..
I have become a stronger person that i love..
I came across this poem the other day..

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me


I am still trying to figure it out.. but it is kinda how i feel...

"Fly, fly far away thats all i wanna do, fly fly far my way. Live like you never have taken all you can before the wind decides to leave,Fly.. fly far away thats all i wanna do, fly on fly on my own way where nobody can touch me, nobody can im flying so far away."

I guess this song reminds me of the new independence, The feeling of i don't want to ever have to depend on anyone else again. Not that i don't want to let someone new in someday, just i wont NEED them i am OK being me and being me alone. I have been dating quite a bit this summer, but i have a 2 week limit on them all i feel, most these guys just don't know who they are they are so focused on being the "cool" guy doing things people want. I want someone who wont care if i like the way they dress, the way they smell. Who likes who they are. An Individual. Yep i know what i want.. thats new. And. I like it.